There is nothing that I dream about more than how we are going to renovate our forever home, even though I have no idea what it will look like or when we will live there. My constant love of going to realtor.com and searching for dream homes in our area and renovating them in my mind has done quite a few things a) helped my creativity with design by testing out ideas on different homes (even just mentally) b) made me more excited and motivated to save money for our future farmhouse and c) made me more depressed and sad that we live in our “for now” house that we aren’t pouring money into to renovate.
We did just get our living room renovated (although I really want the wall of our living room/kitchen torn out and to open it all up, but that requires a lot of money that we don’t have), updated our bathroom a smidge, and I also did some light updating to our kitchen. But it just isn’t right yet. Although our home has greatly improved since we bought it (check out the original state of it!) I still walk into rooms going “if only we had a bigger house/if only we had more money and it was worth it I would do XYZ to make this more of our style/if only we could make this room look like this one I found on Pinterest”.
I know, this is the definition of #firstworldproblems.
But shortly after those “if only” thoughts leave my head I remember something big.
While this isn’t our forever home, it’s our testing and experimenting home.
We have the luxury (yes, I said we have luxury in a 1,074 sq foot house) of being able to change our style, experiment with patterns, paint colors, furniture styles, without the worry and fear of screwing it all up for forever.
We also have the luxury and opportunity to learn how to live in a tiny space, which is leading to us decluttering a lot more, getting creative in our storage and furniture (almost every piece of side furniture we have has storage in it), and if/when we change our style or realize something we did looks bad, the cost is so much less to fix it all.
Like picking out a brown grey paint color for the bathroom that just looked like a lighter shade of poop on the walls.
Or realizing that there is such a thing as too many colors in one living room and having to tone it down.
And even realizing that, while it was creative, a closet turned vanity by the prior owners doesn’t work without a light in the closet, which can’t be installed easily due to the roof pitch.
In this tiny temporary home we’ve learned how to paint better, how to live during a renovation and only slightly want to beat your brains out, how to pick a color scheme that flows throughout the entire home, how to fix a broken washer, how to re hang a door, how to garden, build a firepit, and build different kinds of furniture.
And that is why we will always love this house. Every square foot that just isn’t enough, every wall I want to tear down but know it doesn’t make financial sense, every piece of the ugly carpet (ok, I don’t love it, but it’s gotta stay for a little while longer), every inch of countertop that gets crowded quickly during dinner time, and every extra jiggle we have to give the front door to get it to lock.
We will always love our “for now” home because, through it all, it’s teaching us lessons that will make our forever home that much better.
From learning how to talk through problems and not fight, from learning how to renovate and update a room affordably, to learning how to live in a space that isn’t 100% what you want, this tiny little home is a blessing.